I hate to be all introspective, especially after drinking a few and after a win from my favorite sports team:) However, this week, I have taken a look at my dating experience. I definitely have not made myself emotionally available. Good, yes. Bad, yes. I went on a date once with this guy, and when we were talking about our histories (a Match no-no by the way) he asked me if I was a Serial Monogamist. I said no, but then I said yes, maybe I am. Not intentionally, but it turned out that way. One 6 year relationship followed closely by a 4 year relationship. Check. Going into the 4 year one, I tried to take it slow, not wanting it to fall into the "rebound" realm. Now, I offer myself up to the online dating world, yet I don't call anyone. I don't initiate any contact. I'm not so afraid of being hurt as afraid of getting involved in something that will lead to no where and steal a few years of my ever shortening life. Is that unhealthy? Survey says....yes. I guess what I am trying to say tonight is that maybe I need to be taking more risks. What will it really hurt to send an email to someone I am interested in, right? That is my goal....out on "print" for about 2 people to read...but, nevertheless.
On a more positive note, I did receive text messages tonight from the Alaska guy....he does know I work all weekend, and I haven't talked to him since I called him on Tuesday, so I was pleasantly surprised to hear from him. Maybe that will go somewhere...
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